It was only a matter of time before everyone got in the car with me. This morning all my friends showed up: self-criticism, doubt being the two I know best. It figures, I thought. now that I’m aware and watchful. Likely they had been there all along, but now I can see them.
Doubt is a really challenging companion in my line of work. So much depends on identifying where God is at work. That naming demands that I be spiritually synced to some extent. Today the questions bombarded me: “Will I hear anything this morning? Will there be any insights to note? Am I molding God into a commodity? A product I trade for my own purposes?”
Religion has a long, successful history of making God into our own image to serve our own purposes. When doubt and self-criticism joined me this morning it seemed the only thing to do was to engage them in dialogue. It’s the best way I have of keeping myself honest.